Just Because,...

Wow,...Today I was truly in a roller coaster of emotions!......IDK what happened, but it seemed that the harder I tried to be nice to my husband the harder it was.  We almost had an argument every time we spoke.  I hate it when this happens.  I am trying so hard to change and control my temper.  But it seems that the harder I try the harder it is to accomplish!  Seems like lately everything is going wrong.  Even though I have taken a huge step in my life and have decided to live the Gospel and to change  my life and truly devote myself to being a different person  it seems like everything is falling apart.  I know that my Faith will not be shaken.  I Love My savior Jesus Christ and I know that Heavenly Father Loves me and wants me to be Happy.  I just wish that the people around me felt the same way.  I wish is was that simple.  I wish my loved ones could feel what I feel.  I have never been more sure of my faith, never been more sure that This is the true Gospel and that I am a member of the TRUE church of Jesus Christ.  I know that through my example my loved ones will someday change and feel what I feel.  But in the mean time all I can do is work hard and keep praying and be patient.  I will never understand how we can live without  the gospel, or how we can pretend that everything is ok, and not have a close relationship with our Savior!  I am closer to him now and I am grateful and Happy that I have that relationship with him!  I don't know How i lived without it before.........